Wow! I had to go to
my website to see when I wrote my last newsletter. It was May! I had to
go to my website because my computer passed from its earthly existence
the latter part of May. Even though I had a zip drive installed, I had
never backed up my computer. It has been an interesting ride!
I went through the grief of losing every
newsletter, article, report, letter, and etc that I had ever written. I
dragged myself through the agony of deciding now what? Laptop vs.
Desktop. More recovery efforts vs. drop kicking the hard drive. I talked
until even I was tired of listening to me.
Then, I hit freedom. Hmmm, with everything gone I
am free to create anew. The "old" things felt like a burden. I sniffed
the new slate presenting itself before me.
I went to my inner lab. Okay, I choose freedom.
What is it "I" want? By choosing freedom, I quickly began checking off
items. Desktop. Big screen. Easy. Even though I asked questions of many
people and searched many websites, I always came back to, "What do I
want?"
I chose a gorgeous new Macintosh computer. I have
to tell you she looks fabulous on my desk! She has also presented me
with a new learning curve.
I have never owned a Mac before. It is a new
operating system and I am still learning. Yes, of course, I am
discovering/learning a new operating system within myself as well.
Unburdened by past performance, I am figuring out how to be the whole of
me in every moment of my life.
Freedom rings calling me to wiggle out from under
all out-moded ideas, rules, and expectations. I am relishing the
opportunity. It is not always easy. I still jump up and down sometimes.
But then, I squint my eyes and look deeper.
Initially, the computer crash was devastating.
Now, I see the opportunity it offers me and I have the freedom to choose
the course I want to take. In the movie, "The Secret," (See more about
the movie below.) they use the analogy of headlights on a car. We can
only see 100-200 feet down the road but it is enough to keep going. We
can't always see all the way down our road but we can see enough to take
one step be it an inch or a mile. We are always free to choose.
It feels good to be back writing. I apologize for
disappearing. I look forward to our continuing our walk together!
With love and respect,
Terri Stark
Special Note of Interest....
"The Secret" is a movie
presenting scientists, authors, and philosophers who share their
understanding and beliefs about the secret of living the life you want.
You can learn more by visiting the website at:
www.thesecret.tv
